Considering so much time is past since I first published “A New Set of Tools for an Old Relationship, Part 1”, it seemed that this dream should be analyzed in two parts to not only reflect the gap of time but the new developments that arose in between the start and finish of its analysis. Life seemed to overtake me with its challenges the last several months, which led to my hiatus. Finally I am feeling like there is light at the end of the tunnel, but do not see myself being able to post articles daily at this point (although that is my goal).

I had this dream on June 15 but it took me quite a while to complete part 1. In fact, the tarot cards for the dream weren’t pulled until the 25th of June when I was on a plane to the IASD conference. After the conference, I spent a series of days diligently working on getting it together until July 10th when I received a lawsuit from my ex, Sol. It really took me off-guard because I thought the legal issues were over as of July 1st. I knew that we had some minor cleanup to do that month, but nothing that required us to attend a court hearing. It made me realize an additional layer to White Tiger 6 . In the image the back end of the tiger was still on the other side of the river. It was alluding to the tail end of the disagreement that still had yet to be overcome. But as the river did not require the lion to take a huge leap or bound to cross it – only a small extension of the leg, the final debunking email to clear up the loose ends was not as overwhelming as I had anticipated (although as a new mother and a potential professor creating a course, adding this additional element to my world did increase my stress level). The Hermit card in the spread also resembles the river of White Tiger 6. It clearly divides the one side featuring the two tigers from the other side featuring the two dragons. Perhaps that is why I had such a difficult time deciphering The Hermit preventing me from proceeding forward since I had yet to close that chapter on my history. Thank goodness that at the last minute the court hearing was cancelled and the suit was dropped. Finally I can say that after over 5 1/2 years it is really over! It’s just that I was disappointed several times when it appeared to be finished, which is why I have been hesitant to breathe a sigh of relief so quickly this time.

Analysis Continued:

Green Dragon 9 was pulled for the portion of the dream in which Sol and I were discussing the past. In this particular card the dragon either appears to be setting on a roof of a house or on a fence . It’s difficult to tell from the perspective of the picture whether or not the roof of the house is actually taller than the dragon, and perhaps if we knew whether he was on the roof of the house or a fence we could make a more proper assumption. The rooftop foreshadows the end of the dream. One of the first things that comes to mind is my grandmother’s house that was a big part of the legal battle between my ex and myself. In fact in the dream Sol brings up the “way I had things ready”. He was referring to the fact that his stuff was packed into boxes before I had told him our relationship was over. However the reality of the situation was that I had painted the room so both of our things were in boxes. But in the dream I didn’t want to get into those details. I didn’t want to get into all of the muck that was as deep and thick as quicksand; it would have just sucked us into a very messy conversation. After over 5 years since we separated, most all of the details about how things ended are not as clear in either of our minds as they were in the moment. Just as Green Dragon 9 makes it difficult to see which is the illusion, I am drawn to imagine both sides of the perspective in order to find the truth. In the card the dragon appears to be taller on the house; however if I was standing where the house was then the Dragon may appear shorter than the house. If I was able to stand in between the house and the dragon, they may even turn out to actually be the same height. My conclusion then would be that I need to remember and speak from that knowledge that there are dual perspectives that both represent the truth from the angle which they are viewed, but the real truth lies in the middle. The Feng Shui Tarot booklet states “Avoid the impulse to get overly involved. Contemplate all that has occurred. Cultivate your sensitivity and learn how to go above and beyond.” I think that that’s really the way to go even today when people mention something about him – I need to steer clear of getting involved in the emotions that can rise from that conversation. Now that it’s finally over I can finally step completely back in order to heal from it. Over the years I have been able to take his perspective more into consideration, but because it only recently ended as of this September, I have not had the closer that allows for real reflection. The booklet also mentions that I feel the need to protect my sense of security which in turn holds me back from my full potential. I do agree that I am now and have been doing that. For example, I have never actually marketed my blog to my friends – only to those who attended my presentation at IASD. Honestly, in writing this I am exposing that side of me that I have kept on low profile and really only shared with my small circle of friends. Here I am now sharing this with the whole world (not that the whole world is reading this but it’s available to the whole world), and I am stepping out of my comfort zone by sharing this. Sharing this will aid my road to recovery from a very difficult life choice, as well as it requires me to be really honest about my dreams allowing the potential of this dream analysis to hit home for someone else. It’s not always pretty when you now analyze your dreams because you have to be honest with yourself, and you have to be willing to expose your yourself to others.

I pulled Green Dragon 3 in reference to the portion of the dream where Sol and I are on the rooftop. In the card the dragon appears to be guarding this large ruin like stone. Interestingly enough the Chinese writing on the stone looks as if it is the letters “EX” . The ruin stone is a tool for communication, while at the same time a sacred tool for divination which deserves to be protected. The word/s on the stone is visible to anyone standing in its presence may gain wisdom from it, but the green dragon protects it from being taken away. I do not believe that Sol and I will ever actually have a conversation in real life. Nor do I believe that we will ever be acquaintances, especially in a way in which I would feel comfortable with introducing him to my child. But in my dreams we can be anything I want and that is how I will heal our real life altering exchange. This blog and dream analysis are my words, my perspective, my healing road that I hold as sacred. The memory of our relationship will continue to fade with the years but what I’ve learned from the ending of it will stay with me for a lifetime. In my greatest pain has come my greatest wisdom and from that I am a better wife, mother and friend. All around I am just a better me. The Feng Shui booklet also mentions that my efforts are being seen and prosperity will follow from them. Finishing this dream analysis has been a huge effort for me, which has been heightened by the new changes over the course of this year and forward momentum towards my career. My efforts toward the newer court case paid off by having it cancelled without attending a court hearing. On the reverse aspect of the meaning it discusses the necessity to put forth more effort by creating a solid foundation. I very much know that this is in regards to the blog. By finishing this it can open the doorway to new dreams that reflect the healing of the past and the focus of the future. The Hermit and Green Dragon 3 similarly talk about the need to make a plan and lay it out in a way that builds me up in order to create the future that I really want.